July 2011
“Ah, devil ether. It makes you behave like the village drunkard in some early Irish novel. Total loss of all basic motor skills. Blurred vision, no balance, numb tongue, the mind recoils in horror, unable to communicate with the spinal column, which is interesting because you can actually watch yourself behaving in this terrible way, but you can’t control it. You approach the turn stiles and know that when you get there you have to give the man $2 or he won’t let you inside, but when you get there everything goes wrong.” - Raoul Duke”
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and when your rejected
from your own family because of skin color, what do i do now.
Sometimes family doesnt have your back
Havnt had a back my whole life. I have deep mental scarring from my dad and i cant face anything, Ive thought about suicide for years and stuck in a hole he dug for me. I love you dad. Hope I turned out the way you wanted.
